Moved (on)

http://lovellefaith.wordpress.com/

I've imported my post over so it's exactly the same (pardon the alignment issues) posts.

Kudos!

A weight has lifted

SIT HERE I COME!

I've made up my mind to enter SIT after much deliberation. The mental turmoil that I experienced to come to this decision was not pleasant but memorable. There were many factors to take into consideration and the most significant one was money. If you do not know already, I do not come from an affluent family background and going overseas (without scholarship) would certainly drain our finances. Nonetheless, my parents were supportive but I knew it would come with a cost. I am 21-going-22 this year. It is only rational for me to stop being financial burden to my family. (I have been financially independent since 2 years ago & I am proud of myself!)

In every waking moment for the past months, I had constant battles in my head. To go or not... To go or not... I knew how much I wanted the experience of living independently and travel out of Singapore. As much as I did not want to be a financial burden to my family, that burning desire to break free from the chains of the Singapore was evident. I prayed and prayed for Jesus to show me a clear path, show me the right decision to make. 

This entire "ordeal" my head was in a fluster, the heart was calm.

It is difficult for me to go into details about the process of my decision making. One thing fer sure is that after this entire process, what I had gained transcends decision making skills. As much as I hated the agonizing moments that I have undergone, I enjoyed the fruits of it. The fruits of gaining kingdom friendships and leaning on God. Words can only describe the least of how I felt. Giving up time to spend with the Lord is indeed rewarding. These time sowed in the House of God will NEVER come to naught. 

Undoubtedly my word and flesh may waver in the future. There will be times where my faith in Jesus will dwindle, because I am only human. May Jesus bless me with the wisdom to not relent to flesh and reminisce the glory days where Jesus had manifested in my trying moments. I commit my life into Your hands, make it one of the greatest masterpiece in You have created. May You open up my eyes and heart to see Your handiwork in my life. 

Thank you Jesus! 

Reveal to Yourself to me in all times

I have officially graduated with a diploma in Diagnostic Radiography after 3 years. Whoop whoop! I managed to do the best for the last semester comparing to all my other semesters. It is truly by the grace of God for this to happen. 

Above it all, I prayed for God to show me a clear sign in my direction in life but it has not come to pass. I was looking forward to results day as I reckoned that it would bring a closure/answer to this season of anticipation for me. Nope, it has not. Despite it all, there is an unspoken peace in my heart. I stand secure in my future when I know I have Jesus in the center, knowing that my future is bright because Jesus has gone ahead of time and said it is good! 

Maybe it is my innate personality to seek for closure in everything I do. I abhor the feeling of left hanging in anything, from the minute matters like waiting for a reply from a person to a situation as such. All these could possibly spark a considerable amount of annoyance to me. As I am typing this, it dawn upon me why are all these happening ain't it?   

For the bible says in Romans 5:3-5 (NKJV)

"3 And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; 4 and perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us."

Oh how much I love the fact that our God is so thoughtful, that even through tribulation I gain something from it. How gracious and merciful is God to man? This revelation that I have just received is indeed from God and it is just amazing to see His handiwork manifesting in my life. 

All glory to Jesus. 

A lot has changed

Seeing Christ more applicable in my life as it progresses. 

It is indeed fulfilling and you just want more. 

More of Christ and less of you. 

Mercy journey my boy!

Yc will be going away for his training for 18 days. This would be the longest time we are apart if my memory did not fail. I didn't feel much about it till I parted with him a few hours ago. Now that I am all carefree and idling around, I would prolly be spending much more time alone than expected.

I hope all will go well for Yc and for me. May I be productive with my time and utilize it wisely.

The paper kites / Bloom

In the morning when I wake

And the sun is coming through,

Oh, you fill my lungs with sweetness,

And you fill my head with you.

Shall I write it in a letter?

Shall I try to get it down?

Oh, you fill my head with pieces

Of a song I can't get out.

Can I be close to you?

Ooh-oo-oo-ooh, ooh (simile).

Can I be close to you?

Ooh, ooh.

Can I take it to a morning

Where the fields are painted gold

And the trees are filled with memories

Of the feelings never told?

When the evening pulls the sun down,

And the day is almost through,

Oh, the whole world it is sleeping,

But my world is you.

Can I be close to you?

(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah).

Can I be close to you?

(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah).

*whistling*

Can I be close to you?

(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah).

Can I be close to you?

(Ah) ooh (aah), ooh (aah).

Can I be close to you?

Ooh, ooh.

From glory to glory

I can finally blog proper henceforth. There's nothing much left for me to do but enjoy and cherish every moment of it. This liberating feeling is one of the best I have ever had. No more books, no more money woes, no more negativity in my life till I start Uni/work at the very least. 

So much has changed during my inactivity and I have no idea where I should start. However, there is one thing that I would want to share with anyone who reads this space. It is basically, the biggest change which circulates around my walk with God.

Christianity, often classified as a religion, is my eternal relationship with God. This relationship is incomparable to any you can find in the world. There is no other relationship that you can feel more secured in, no other relationship that only builds you up and never pulls you down. I am utterly blessed to be in this divine relationship with God. My best "free gift" I have ever received or met in this case. 

In the very beginning of my walk, I was not exactly the most avid and faithful Christian around. Attending Sunday service was not my priority. I had my priority mixed up back then. During my junior college period, I was blessed with kingdom friends who pointed me back to Jesus. Still, I was not fervent in my walk with God. 

Nonetheless, by the grace of God, I was touched by how Jesus has provided and guided me along my 'A' level period. I started serving in the children ministry at the beginning of 2012. I started out with an enthusiastic heart but my human form took over quite a few times. I grew weary at a point of time but Jesus provided me with change and I was relocated to a different group. Things started to look up and I got more involved in my team. I attended more meetings that the formal me would have deemed as secondary. 

At this point of time, I knew it was the divine exchange taking place. Jesus in me and me for Jesus. Attending Sunday service got less and less of a chore (even when fatigue was at its peak after serving). I begin to lean on Jesus so much more. 

I then got to know of a fellow brother in Christ who turned my fire up for Jesus. I thank God for such a brother in my life and how he has been such a blessing in my life. Although we do have different views in our religious upbringing, at the very least we both know that we are for God and not against. This brother was equipped with much bible knowledge and this inspired me to increase mine as well. 

Leaning on Jesus in everything possible is the most satisfying of all. I have set my priorities right and I am so ever grateful for it. We often hear pastors preaching - when you place Jesus in the center, everything will turn out for your good. I had never grasped this concept till I had my personal experience in life. Committing your time to read the Word and getting to know Jesus will come naturally. Once you have caught this revelation, I can ensure that you will lead the richest type of life you can ever imagine. 

Jesus has orchestrated everything in my life at the most timely moment and it is all for my good. My faith is in Him and I know that my future is bright and successful because I place my trust, my hope in Jesus. No words can describe my love, my appreciation, my gratitude for Jesus. His selfless act of dying on the cross has changed my life tremendously. If only, everyone else could see how great is my God.

I can never imagine my life void of Christ ever again. Sure, my humanity kicks in some times, but I pray and trust that Jesus will keep me safe and protect me against any potential harm in my life. 

Thank you my best friend , my confidant, my heavenly Father. :)