Define friends

Disclaimer: The post you are about to read is not directed to anyone in particular. Although, the blogger has written this post with certain people in mind but never meant any actual damage to them in any way.

"As you age, your friends will decrease" These were the words I had from my lecturer a few days back. I was blown away by this semi-coincidental phrase given by him. It really struck me that this statement is true and true to a large extent.

I am someone who pick up little phrases and words from people which impacted me in huge ways. This quote just so happened to be amplified in the situation I am in. My lecturer elaborated what he meant (in case your personal translation of the quote got the better of you) - friends will leave you because of various commitments, environment and lifestyles.

Then, this sparked off a series of thoughts about my various friends I have in life now. Friends that I don't know why am I even friends with, friends that I feel have lost faith in our friendship, friends who I just don't keep in contact anymore.

The most irksome one would be being friends with people I don't even know why. Maybe I do know why - to survive probably? I really detest to be hypocritical over such issues. It has always been part of me to genuinely meant what I say or do but recently, I felt that it has been such an tall order for me. I don't even know who to turn to if I ignored certain people. It has been killing me every time we do a meet up or have a conversation. I feel so judged and made use of every time I do something and that's not right.

Define friends. Fake.

It's most saddening when you've friends who have lost faith in this friendship. I guess the most heart wrenching part comes when they are your friends for a few years and you always thought you had their backs. I don't know if I am reading the signals wrongly but whatever the case, it has been hurting me. Sometimes, I really hope that (you) will change your style of managing every thing. Otherwise, prove me wrong that (you) are not the best person to be put in charge of something big because it is not the way to treat your friends.


Define friends. Hurtful.

When you're so caught up with work and school that you've no other time for anything else. One rest day will be much cherished by self to replenish whatever that is lost. You get to see who are the ones who really bother don't you? Friends who even bother to send you little text to wish you well. These little actions are one that fills me up and make me more hopeful in friendship(s). :")

Define friends. Forgetful.

I may not be in the best phase of my life now. Doing the stuff that I do not want to do but I know everything will be set straight for me eventually. But rest now, I need to wallow in bitterness for the friends I have lost and the friends I will be losing. Prep myself for the worst to come and cherish those that cherishes me.

Friends </3