I started off my year with a very busy schedule. I had to juggle with school, work, relationships and top it off with my Sunday commitments with church. I remember those times as trying and draining. I barely had time for myself and the only thing I really wanted was time alone and I really meant alone (Not even with God). I still attended church and listened to the word despite my hectic schedule but my time spent with God had remarkably decrease.
The first half of the year seemed to be in a fast forward mode, there were many events this year that made me realize many things in life. One aspect in life which I gave a lot of thought into was friendship. Many passing events have revealed to me who are the friends that I should fight for and those I should not. I think I have filtered a lot of friends out this year. I use to be a person who try to make an effort to talk to my peers (whom I think are worthy of my time) but I believe the Lord has opened my eyes to look beyond being friends whom I can relate with to friends whom you know 10 years down the road would be the very same person as they would be right now. Most importantly, you can see genuine and sincerely efforts reciprocated. I am glad that I have found them and I want to thank them for being my pillar of support, my trusty buddies and friends I can freely give opinions without feeling disrespected in anyway. When we grow older, we become wiser to discern who are the ones worth fighting for, who are the ones who are worth your time. I have stop trying in many friendships and I don't feel compromised in any way.
Now towards the ending of the year, there is a feeling of relief. 2012 has been a trying, eye-opener yet fruitful year for me. I remembered myself making a point to talk to Jesus every morning, to commit my day into His hands and may His divine protection be over my loved ones. Truth be told, I can see His abundance of blessing over me. To God be all the glory and praise. It is amazing. The word that Pastor preached on that has impacted me the most was to not say "Dear God, I have done my best. The rest is up to you" but instead to commit everything in His hands. Even the tiniest bit of self-effort is doubting God's ability to do what we desire and that is wrong way of believing. Fully submitting and committing is the way to go. I only grasp this towards the end of the year and is in awe till now. I am still taking baby steps in letting go everything to God but I pray that one day I can be that confident girl who can commit 100% to God.
There are so many events that I am grateful of, be it good or bad. Even for the bad times, I want to thank God for allowing it to happen. These are the times that You opened my eyes to the good and bad side of people and more than that, to see You moving in my life and protecting me from any form of evil towards me.
I was to thank the Lord for being so faithful in my life. This year has been a year which I have seen such an outpouring of the Lord's blessing over me. He has been so faithful in every areas of my life. It is truly a year of unceasing fruitfulness for me. Thus explaining my burning desire to be entering 2013!
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